Señor Panda's Menagerie of Light

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that's all. :D

There's a bedroom window that shares alleyspace with my bedroom window, about 1 foot to the left of mine. In fact, it's placed at such an angle that if I drew back my curtain I could wave hello. Whoever lives there has loud sex A LOT and so I do not draw my curtain (lucky for me I like the dusky lamplit look at all hours of the day).

I could ruin their lives so badly by existing more to them than I do now. ha ha ha ha. shut up sex people. It's 7:47 in the freaking morning and you already did this last night. sheesh.

Brian Dettmer: book autopsies


.....

The essay still looms.

and it's political
and politics is not necessarily
just guerilla fighters, prime ministers
and who cheated in the primaries
it's also who am i in relation to you
who are we in the way we can see ourselves
in relation to the other kids
the ones in the magazines
and the ones who miss out on stuff
it does not even matter anyways
cause they live far away from the cities
and (??) rebellion from the systems and the norms
better (??) saying be bummed than be bored
and they're taking matters in their own hands
and that's what matters
i think how everyone's own plan
works out and we can all give credit in the end
or the middle
rather than tripping on some scene politicals
do you know what i mean?
and if we're all here then
we're also probably all special art rebels anyway
so let's all be special art rebels together
same level and we're if not the same it's so close
so close and here it goes
and it's a toast
and it's a toast to us and it goes
eyes closed
eyes open
eyes closed
eyes open
eyes closed
eyes closed
eyes open
eyes closed
eyes open
eyes closed
eyes open
eyes closed
eyes open
like (textfield magazine was made by joanathan maggen)
maybe when youre grabbing your cds out your stationwagon civics
or whatever
you might turn on music to not think better
cause it would be better to not think about
whatever there is to not think about
and then it works like this
we're like arms stretched out
needle sticks in feel pricking
wait a second oh my god
and then you see the blood dripping
it's coming out
like a waterfall
and you just a want a test result 'you're ok' and that's all
not an hour and a half stall at planned parenthood wasting
(??) time on an aids test?
no, it's just a general std screening
oh my god i'm fully leaving
actually i'm not i'm getting it done just to do it
cause i can cause it's fully doable
to make it through this so do it
i did oh my god (dude man dawg) call me bro
it puts the world in perspective it's big
like (?? the most intense experiences)
like multiplying times in a bajillion people
at all times passed the future together
with right now
right now crazy gnarly stuff is happening
simultaneous to beautiful light bursts
and perfect angel babies
who will maybe someday grow up to revolutionize
things called the globe of who knows what
crazy gnarly regenerative force of evil
that's what i'm sayin oh my god
there is sooo much

BARR - Half of Two Times Two - scroll down a bit, download the goodness, revel in modern troubadours and spoken-word love

I am so so stalling for time and my essay is due in a few hours. Where is the academic part of my reasoning brain? At least my pencils ask no logic of me... grah.

( more sketchbookery )

I'm insanely bored and unable to sleep, due to two fluffy puffy kittens that weigh about as much as my opinion of them right now.

When I throw the cheeky one to the end of the bed, it's like bowling with cuteness.



I can't even knit with them in the room, for reasons of innate cat habits I'm sure I don't need to explain.

They're playing with the metal curtains again.

X_x

(psst.)



(they're vegan white tea blueberry flavoured)


...

It's sucky snowy out and I can't wait to go home. :/
I'm bringing every pencil and scrap of ink I can carry, and when I walk in my mother's door I will hug her and talk hours with her and then stake out a working desk so I can forget about christmas as completely as possible and just draw til my fingers hurt, away from my life, away from school city everything. i'm going on hiatus.

I will also bake like a mofo. :)
(hey, she buys flour by the 20 kg. bag! resistance isn't possible.)

I duct-taped a loaf of this stuff to my friend's door (he has no: doorbell, phone line, internet, or desire to reach the outside world), and got RAVE RAVE REVIEWS. I accredit it to this recipe, that says to use a Poolish, which, besides being great fun to say, also bubbles visibly like a witches cauldron as the yeast goes to work, and makes bread taste utterly delicious. So yeah, I made bread.



continuing in the vein of Cooking with LIVING CREATURES (spooky!), I actually made a batch of sprouts the other day. They taste pretty wretched, almost like splenda-sweet, but that's just because of the kind of grain I used. I have 3 more batches started (lentil, chickpea, mung), which definitely taste better and I'll post those when they're grown.

houston we have bling picture. ya, I know, it's not very blingy as things go, but if you look REALLY CLOSELY..........



look look look! see, there's some shiny dollar signy kinda stuff. I hope nobody asks me if it means anything, 'cause it clearly doesn't (what, me have views????), it's just liz-art filtered through strange-teacher assignment. ok, if pressed, there's something about the constrictive nature of decoration, but that's all I'm gonna say. : DDDDDD

Business

If anyone who wants a zine could actually send me $2 plus postage (or another zine/comic in trade), that would be great. The printing costs were a little high this time around, eep!

*don't send coins! use money orders or the equivalent in stamps so it doesn't get stolen

Pleasure

Vegan Apple-Spice Cookies !

2 1/2 cups all-purpose flour
2 tsp baking soda
1 tsp each: cinnamon and ginger
1/4 tsp allspice
1/8 tsp nutmeg
1/4 tsp salt
1/2 cup salt-free vegan margarine
1 cup brown sugar
3/4 cup white sugar
1 cup apple sauce
1/2 cup chopped apples

I. sift together the flour, baking soda, spices and salt

II. cream together the margarine, sugar and apple stuff, then gradually add the dry ingredients

III. cover and chill for 1 hour, then roll out 1 tbsp-worth balls of dough and squish them onto a parchment-lined cookie sheet with the bottom of a wet wineglass (thicker for cakier cookies, thinner for crispy)

III. bake at 350 for 10-12 minutes, or until browned around the edges

yummy! they don't last very long!

>>>>> : http://www.adaweb.com/project/holzer/video/Truisms/expiring.mov



this is a symbol of the apocalypse for my drawing class, we had to make up our own ("the movie's over, the movie's fucking over!")

now I just have to figure out how to make a drawing that's full of *ahem* BLING. I don't really draw bling the way my prof sees it (sleek cars, jewel-encrusted stuff, glitter, etc), but I'll figure it out. I hope he likes really shiny round baubles 'cause that's what I can do... anyway....

I'm back! I have internet again!

although:

in it's absence I've REPLACED said time-suck with a better method of web-like communication, ie: my new zine is out!




(vegan recipes, ranting on the spirituality of oatmeal, nerdy boys, acid trips, and lots and lots art - 36 pages)
It's going for 2$ plus postage right now, email me at underwatercigarettes@gmail.com and we'll work out addresses.

Other than that... I'm pretty darned peachy. My desk has turned into the deck of a spaceship that takes me to places that end with beautiful beautiful things. That is to say, lots of projects. :)

also, I'm going as Wonderbread for Hallowe'en. There will certainly be pictures.

and in 2 more days I'll draw dragons on the mens room ceiling
chalk, chalk and little bathroom-sign people tryin to take it down, all lilliputianary
there isn't enough wine near me (yet)
but my family is warm and they're quick with the wit-battles
vegan pie and tofu 2morrow, pumpkin and cranberry-Cortland
this couch is so comfortable
and the towels here are clean
in fact everything is soft, white, and fresh from the dryer
(le sigh le sigh le happy sigh)

( + more ink )

The liz made cupcakes.... SUCCESSFULLY !

wüt wüt wüt wüt wüt wüt wüt wüt wüt wüt wüt wüt wüt wüt !




They're the ppk's vegan Gingerbread Cupcakes w/Lemony Frosting, with some tweaking (way less oil). And of a batch of 10, a scant 2 were cupcake perfection, but that's ok, because that means I can repeat the goodness next time, yay!

Cupcake Culprits ---

1. "12" on my oven is low. "1" is high. O_o........ (no, temperature indicators would be way too easy, must decipher rusted numerals in order to bake. gah)

2. Muffin tins! and no pretty paper cups.

3. Water damage from my perpetually leaking fridge killed two of them. X_X

4. I R IMPATIENT! MUST DE-PAN NOW, GRARARARARARARAR. haha.



Aaaannyway, continuing on like anyone cares, despite the many impediments, they are soooooooo gooooooooooooooooooooood. Like, sex good. Like, they're spicy and moist and lemony sweet and just a bit caramalized, and actually fluffy like cakes!!... *drool*

k, I shut up now. back to angst and bad poemmmming. ^_^

New zine starts tomorrow.




I could eat the streets with a spoon, boy howdy. Time to write love letters to concrete!

Little book gained life! It's a piece of peachery, makes internal sense, but it speaks of Everything and the art's kinda fun to watch. Okay, s'about a girl and her invisible boyfriend and the tenuous grasp on Cold Hard Reality that sometimes ain't so Cold&Hard. woot buckets! If anyone wants one, send a buck (to cover printing costs) and I'll hook you up. I may even be convinced to continue these comic whatsits, perhaps the next one will feature spandex-ified heroic typals. Not. : D

16 pages, $1, Sample Page
(underwatercigarettes@gmail.com)

You just gotta love it when this :



turns into This ::::



!!

and yes, that's a blackforest mousse pie, 100% animal free so's the children can run and play in that sunny-sun future of ours with no worries of like... zombie cows.


.... heheh..... zombie cows.

MOUSSE! ヘ(^_^ヘ)(ノ^_^)ノ !

+ cayenne pepper
+ marjoram
+ garlic powder
+ mustard seeds (yellow and black)
+ caraway
+ fennel
+ green cardamom pods
+ chipotle pepper powder
+ cinnamon
+ savory
+ chinese 5 spice powder
+ rosemary
+ bay leaves
+ tarragon
+ red pepper flakes
+ whole dried chiles
+ cumin seed
+ coriander
+ star anise
+ hungarian paprika
+ black peppercorns
+ chili powder
+ nutmeg
+ dill